It's my first time, that I have the feeling of not bonding with my doll. I have never thought that I would have such feeling before but the truth is I started to feel that no matter how I change the hair style, the clothes, the face up, she's just not what I expected to be. She is cute and lovely but just not what I want. Then, I started to think why not letting her go. The idea is juts like a spark to a fire. It grows and to a point that I even have a thought of wanting her to go asap. I realize that it is so cruel to her. Still, when I see other people's doll of the same mold, I can feel my love to the mold. Then I started to think it is my problem that I cannot make her as lovely as other people do. It is such a pain to my heart because it is me who ordered her. and now, I am still wondering if she will have a new home with more love and attention. What if she cannot find one and still being there with me? How can I rebuild the bonding to her once I have had those cold hearted thoughts on her? Here's some questions for you: How did you feel when you put up you doll for adoption when you are the first owner? How did you feel when you are having a long wait for someone to adopt your doll? Do you have experience about putting your doll for adoption but you finally keep her and rebuild the bonding sucessfully? Do you think putting a doll up for adoption is a very serious issue?