Hello, I bought my first BJD for my birthday about a year ago after saving up for the longest time. That doll was the first BJD I'd ever fallen in love with and the only one I'd ever had the guts to actually buy. Like an expecting mother, I waited patiently for my doll, had fun buying clothes, and so on. When he finally arrived, he was even more beautiful than I expected. The problem is, he was such an expensive purchase and I found myself so intimidated by him that I've barely played with him since. Over the past year I've tried sewing him some clothes, taken a few pictures (doll photography has been a hobby of mine for quite some time), and I've even spent a lot of time developing his character and his story. Still, I haven't been able to connect with him or get the joy out of him that I was expecting when I ordered him. I still really admire the BJD hobby and desperately wish to be more active in it-- I watch tons of doll videos, I browse the forum, I've created tons of characters to go with this doll in my head, I even have a long wishlist of other dolls I would love to own... but when it comes down to it, I'm quite honestly afraid to play with my own doll. I'm not sure what to do about this. Now that I'm finally on summer break, I actually have some proper free time to devote to hobbies and such. I would love to have this become the time when I finally "connect" with my doll. Do I need to build him a room/furniture? Sew him a whole wardrobe? Buy another doll to keep him company? I'm not sure what to do. So I was wondering: have any of you had similar experiences? What did you do to overcome them? Do you have any suggestions for things I could do to help me "connect" with my doll?