Recently I came into a new view in life...everything I had liked before (anime, BJD's, lolita)...just in one day changed. I found that those things were shields hiding the true me. My dolls were like my cover...they would keep secrets and I thought they were always there for me, I could dress them and make them look beautiful....something that I did not always feel (even though I know I am so beautiful...we all are). My lolita clothes were more in a sense a way for me to be noticed...for people to see me, since I felt I did not feel the love that we all yearn for (even though it was right in plain sight). I learned in one day how much these things were not the real me. I learned that what really matters in life is being love, giving love---to everyone. I learned that material objects can NOT fulfill you--even though in the past I thought I knew this, I would still see myself wanting things I could not afford (basically more BJDs and lolita). I learned I would much rather spend time with nature and my close friends with the same views on life...I'd rather have few things and be just filled with love than to have material objects that can not be taken with me to the next life. I would rather feed starving children and help people than to waste money on a doll. Well if you do have one....why do we always need more? I always wanted another when the one I had was fine....I did not need them to survive. God alone could fulfill all my needs. How do your dolls make you feel? Deep deep down what reason are they in your life? Are they really there just to look at?---or are they covering you too?