I bought my first doll with a faceup because, much like you, I was scared I'd mess something up. I will say, it was nice to have a doll I could play with right away. She looked great right out of the box. I ended up ordering my 2nd doll blank - and most of my dolls after that. I really like painting them myself now. Customization is really half the fun of bjd for me. I think if you want to paint your first doll, you should go for it! Just make sure you seal it properly and wear a respirator . You can always send it out for faceup services if you find you don't like doing faceups.